I don't write too many posts about my personal life on my blog. I've always been very private. Even when I first started my blog back in 2013, I kept it a secrete from everyone (even my mom). Since I've redesigned my blog on Square Space, I thought I would try something new. I've decided that every once and awhile I'm going to share what's going on in my life so that you can get to know me more as a person instead of just a blogger.
Recently I've been reflecting on life. I think it's because I am turning 24 next week and I cannot believe I am that old. Like I honestly feel like I'm 16 years old! Anyways, I have been really happy with where I am in life. I worked so hard in high school and college and it is nice to look back on everything and finally be where I always pictured myself.
I'm not going to lie though, being an adult is a little scary. Well at least at first it was. The whole time you're in school your focus is getting good grades, graduating college and working to save money for college. But then all of the sudden you graduate college and BAM you're instantly an adult and then you're kind of like wait now what? And you know what? You can literally do anything you want. At first this was frightening to me because I have always been a person that likes structure and knowing what's coming next. Now I love the spontaneity of my life. It is so exciting! I am embracing this freedom full force.
You're probably like okay what is the point of this blog post Nicole. Well, I told you I have been reflecting on life lately right? Well I remember a year ago I was the unhappiest I have ever been. I felt stuck. It's a horrible feeling. I wanted to move out of my house, but I had no money. I wanted to lose weight but I had no time. I wanted to stop being shy and nervous about everything but I was too scared to step out of my comfort zone. I was playing it safe all the time and that wasn't getting me anywhere. I know there are a lot of people who feel stuck or sad or frustrated with life. I see it every day on the internet, at work and on the train. I'm telling you right now that if you feel like this, you need to set some goals for yourself and a promise you in time your life can be everything you want it to be.
On New Years Eve (I know cliche but its the perfect time for goals) last year, I made a pact with myself to have the best year ever. 2015 was going to be my year, it had to be because I could not stand feeling stuck any longer. Not long after I made this pact with myself did I book a flight to Virginia all by myself to visit my cousins. Now this may not sound like a big deal to you, but trust me going on a plane by myself to a different state figuring everything out myself was literally something I never ever would have done in the past. I'm not even going to lie to you. I had a mini panic attack on the plane ride over there, but once I landed I was so proud of myself. Honestly, it wasn't even that scary either. From that moment on, I took every opportunity that came my way. I would not say no to anything! I didn't want to miss out on any more opportunities just because I was nervous.
Once I stepped out of my comfort zone I didn't feel stuck anymore. The goals I had set for myself were finally being reached. I lost 25 pounds by eating healthy and going to the gym 4-5 days a week. I got my first full time job out of college at this amazing company in Boston. I also met an amazing, cute and nice guy who I've been dating for about 6 months. Everything just started to come together. It was amazing. I felt amazing.
23 has been an awesome age, but I'm excited to turn 24 and continue seeing where all these opportunities lead me. If you are a nervous person like I am or you're feeling sad about life, make goals for yourself and stick to them. Keep on track and take each day as it comes. Never say no to an opportunity either. Even if an opportunity doesn't lead anywhere, at least you learned from it. Everything happens for a reason. I truly believe that. You will get where you need to be in time. Just be patient and work hard. Good things takes time. Life is supposed to be amazing! Don't let anything hold you back, especially nerves!
Cheers to a happy life!